Vulnerability
26/07/2022
I would like to share an experience I had when I as an adult was learning to water ski .
My husband said water skiing is fun, easy and awesome. You learn that quickly, he said.
Yeh, that sounds fun! Let´s do it.
We brought family and friends to a calm lake. This shaky feeling is vulnerability, and it makes you want to turn around and go home, where you can escape the potential judgment of others and your own fear of the unfamiliar.
After a couple of attempts, all the young people and friends managed to ride water skis.
It actually looked very easy.
Now it was my turn.
I started to feel strange. My heart rate increased my palms became sweaty and I began to think, - Why in the world did I think I could do this?
This shaky feeling is vulnerability, and it makes you want to turn around and go home, where you can escape the potential judgment of others and your own fear of the unfamiliar.
I hesitated. I talked myself into making a few attempts. The first attempt I failed. The second attempt as well. The third time I lost one water ski. The fourth attempt I fell forward and was dragged under the water before I let go. The fifth attempt I managed to get up and ride a few meters before I lost my balance. The feeling of having come up and actually water skied a few meters made me want to try again. One more time. Yes, I made it. Now I was riding water skiis after the boat around the whole lake (a small lake)
The feeling was now overwhelming.
I did it!
Please contact me if you want to share a similar experience or if you want help or guidance how to awaken your courage